We all have secrets we keep, and this is mine. A secret I keep from many and a secret I obsess over. I have become a master at hiding it. People are usually shocked when I reveal my secret to them. "You do not look like a smoker" they say. I am still not sure what a smoker "looks like" but yes, my name is Stephanie and I am a smoker.
As a teen I was like "yeah I smoke f** you, now what". As a young adult I didn't hide it but I started developing my habits and fears. Now that I am a mother the compulsion to hide it as to not be judged by society drives me to hide it even more.
I do not want to be judged or labeled just because I am a smoker, but lets face it that is what happens. I started smoking at 15 and over the past 22 years I have quiet many times, sometimes for a month and other times for years. When hubby and I decided to start trying to conceive I threw them away and never looked back.. Not until after the girls were past their first years did I pick up the habit again. Why do I keep circling back to it?
My theory is that there are many different types of smokers, I happen to be a "stress/habit smoker". Not sure if that is a real diagnosis or not, but that is what I labeled myself. Some people are stress eaters or have nervous habits, I smoke. It's the only time I get 5 minutes to myself to calm down and reflect. I also smoke out of habit. It is a daily habit after I get the girls on the bus to brew my coffee, grab a smoke and head outside with my phone to chat with a friend.
I can not stand the smell of smoke on my clothes or my skin, it's disgusting. My compulsion to hide my secret has me locked into a pattern. I do not enjoy my cracked and bleeding hands because I have to scrub them every time I have a cigarette. I do not enjoy the extra laundry I have to wash because I change my clothes often to avoid the smell of smoke on me. Most of all I really do not like the constant fear of being found out.
I do not smoke in my house, in my car or around my children. I do not carry my cigarettes with me when I leave my house. I will only smoke away from my home if I am at a friends house for a bbq/get together and they already know I smoke. Even then I excuse myself and walk away from the crowd. My need to keep my secret sometimes ways very heavy on me.
When I got an email from a PR rep from
NICOmate about writing a review I was so excited. I had been online comparing e-cigs and reading reviews for a few weeks, so this was perfect timing. I thought I would be reviewing a
disposable electronic cigarette which was great but when I found out they were sending an
e-cigarette starter kit I was floored. I was so excited to get my package I literally stalked my mail lady every day that week. Then the day finally came, and it was perfect timing because I had smoked my last cigarette the night before.
In my starter kit I received:
* 2 high capacity lithium ion rechargeable e-cigarette batteries ( one "king" and one "100". For you smokers out there you know what that means).
* 1 USB E-Cigarette Charger
* 1 E-Cigarette Wall Charger
* Instruction manual + E-cig Lifetime Warranty Card
The e-cigarette batteries come half charged so you can immediately start using it. So of course when I got my NICOmate package the first thing I did was put my e-cig to the test. When you order the
starter kit you can choose between regular tobacco flavor or menthol. Well being a menthol girl myself, the choice was not a hard one.
I noticed even before I took my first puff that the weight of the e-cigarette is a little heavier than a regular cigarette, but of course it would be since it is not filled with tobacco and over 4,000 deadly chemicals but instead a rechargeable battery. Drawing my first puff from the e-cigarette was interesting. The flavor is nice but the feel of the smoke was surprising. It was actually a lot lighter than I expected yet when I exhaled I saw "smoke" just like a regular cigarette.
"NICOmate replaceable cartomizers are filled with fluid made from a mixture liquid nicotine and propylene glycol. When a user inhales on the NICOmate electronic cigarette, the battery powers an "atomizer" to atomize the liquid into what amounts to inhalable vapor (similar to a fog machine). The vapor is cool and is taken in with a similar feeling of smoke from a traditional cigarette. The flavor of the vapor depends on the NICOmate flavors you choose. Our users have compared the flavor and feeling to that of a hookah (sheesha) and traditional cigarettes."

I have been using the
NICOmate e-cigarette for a week now and I have to say, i love it! Even after 24 hours I found I had broken my morning ritual and daily habits. Where I would normally smoke 4-5 cigarettes in a day, I was drawing 4-5 puffs off the e-cig for the whole day. Now lets think about this...1 normal cigarette takes about 5 minutes to smoke and you get approximately 10 puffs. Times that by 5 cigs, that is 50 puffs and 25 minutes of my day spent just smoking. I went from that to only 4-5 puffs for a whole day. After 3 days of using the e-cig I went to only 1-2 puffs and on day 4 I didn't use it at all!
I am on day 7 and still using it sparingly. Last night after dinner I had a couple cocktails, and if your a smoker who likes a tasty adult beverage you know drinks and smoking go hand in hand...yet another one of my smoking habits. However I only needed 1-2 puffs to satisfy me instead of a full cigarette or two.
Will I continue to use the
NICOmate e-cigarette?
Absolutely! While I realize I am a creature of habit I also have to be honest and admit to myself that I enjoy smoking. Not sure what it is about it, but I enjoy it. I very much enjoy a cigarette with my cocktails and I enjoy hanging out with my friends that smoke. However since I started using the
NICOmate e-cigarette, my hands are healing, my laundry load has decreased and I do not live in the constant paranoia that someone can "smell it" on me even though I have showered and put on fresh clean clothes.
I like that I can still enjoy an occasional smoke. I say "occasional" because since using the NICOmate I have decreased my smoking by over 90% but I still have the option. The option to enjoy a puff when I want and I can even hang out in the crowd of non smoking friends at parties and "smoke" because there is NO second hand smoke or nasty smell. I no longer have to isolate myself or be embarrassed.
My recommendation. If you are looking to quit or even just cut back I highly recommend the NICOmate e-cigarette. If nothing else be glad your not inhaling those over 4,000 dangerous carcinogenic chemicals in the traditional cigarettes. If you have the same fears I do use the NICOmate to get your confidence back and feel better about yourself.
NICOmate has a great
FAQ page if you would like to read more about the NICOmate e-cigarette and how it works. For you
review bloggers out there, NICOmate is always looking for more reviewers.
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Disclaimer: I was contacted via email by PR rep for NICOmate about writing a review and hosting a giveaway. I received the previously mentioned product free of charge to review. I received no monitory compensation. All comments and opinions expressed are mine and mine alone and are unbiased.